Sunday, April 10, 2011

Focus and a Hard Reality

This post is a hard post to write- it's been a long time since I have been where I am today. Honestly, I am struggling- and that's a hard thing for me to admit- I don't like that I don't have it all figured out (but then neither did the disciples for a LONG time). I have been struggling for a while and it's been something I can't pinpoint. I have had no motivation, no passion, no "nothing" to do anything beyond the necessary parts of living. I LOVE my job and that's been an area where I haven't struggled. People have asked me how I was doing and I respond with a "fine" but in reality- that's not where I am. Some days, I am literally just going through the motions and other days- I don't even feel like I am doing that.

I don't know how long I'll be in this "funk" or what it will take to get me out of it but I knew it was time to be real- especially when I heard this song earlier today...

6 comments:

Bernard Shuford said...

Believe me, I understand what it means to be in a funk. I'm in a DEEP funk and I don't have any idea of how to handle all the mess that is life.

Bernard Shuford said...

Believe me, I understand what it means to be in a funk. I'm in a DEEP funk and I don't have any idea of how to handle all the mess that is life.

Zee said...

Hey Tami, came here from your dad's blog.

I was reading your post and thought "wow, she's writing my thoughts!"... Been in a similar "funk" for some time as well and it's driving me nuts because it's not like me. The only thing that keeps me going some days is that I know that He's got it all figured out - but MAN, it's hard to wait before I'll finally "get it"...

*hugs* and prayers.

and thanks for the song. good one.

Zee said...

oh, also - you might like this song. it's one of those that i listen to when i am feeling weird - Sanctus Real's "I'm Not Alright"

Tami said...

You know- part of what I have found by being "real" is that there are a lot of people who are in similar positions and you would never know by the external....

Thanks for "understanding"

Bill (cycleguy) said...

No shame in admitting you are in a funk. I see the two comments here from people I deeply admire. (Besides you). Bernard & I have been blog friends for close to 2 years I think. Zee calls me her big brother and I call her my lil sis. (You know I never had one). They have admitted to what you are going through. You know I have. Only by being real can we find others who are experiencing it and form a bond. You will come out of it in time. Love you much.